Jew in the suburbs


The Bracha: A story of a blessing
February 24, 2009, 4:14 am
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Dear Blog readers,

 

Several weeks ago I had a wonderful opportunity to be blessed by a Rebbe and I took it.

I was so excited and to tell you the truth, nervous.  I’m sure if not all people who have been blessed by a Rebbe can say, it was a big deal most can.  Out here in the suburbs, I feel it is an even bigger deal because the opportunities to be blessed by a Rebbe are few in comparison to big cities such as New York.  Rebbes don’t always come to the suburbs for three day visits.  I felt an urgency to get a Bracha, a blessing.  Perhaps more of an urgency than I would have felt if I now lived in New York.  I thought to myself, I had better get a Bracha from this Rebbe ASAP because who knows when I will get the next opportunity and how often will a Rebbe come to the suburbs?

 

I was filled with excitement about getting a Bracha and I should mention that it was the first time in my life that I had an opportunity to get a blessing from a Rebbe.  Someone told me that I should ask for a Bracha for another person before asking for myself.  This was common sense to me and to do anything else would be against the person that I am.  I always think of others first, I always try to think of others before myself. And don’t feel right requesting something just for myself when I can request the same for others in need. I did some preparation before receiving my Bracha.  A few days before, I collected the full Hebrew names of people I knew, double checking some of them to make sure my information was correct;  I then made a list of all of these names and next to each name  I wrote the things I wanted these people to be blessed with. When I got to the shul the next afternoon, I was surprised to see that there were not that many people waiting, but I was happy. I knew this Rebbe was going to be in my community for three days and for many hours during these three days would bless the people who came to him.  I had chosen to come the first hour he was there on the first day.  This Rebbe decided he was more comfortable giving blessings to people in the sanctuary after a few minutes inspecting another room.  When we were asked to come in, this Rebbe was sitting at a long table I watched as  other people got their blessings and then I was summoned to get my Bracha but I didn’t realize it.  I thought there were people ahead of me and I said people who were not ahead of me could go before me but this would not do.  I walked over to this Rebbe, in my opinion quite timidly and thank G-d, he gave me a blessing which encompassed within it everything.  I was disappointed that I was not able to ask this Rebbe for blessings for others.  I thought I would have the time and I didn’t so although I got a Bracha I felt disappointed that I did not have the time to ask for others.  This Rebbe needed to give a Bracha and move on to the next person.  I know that after receiving my Bracha, I walked out of the shul, my feet steps light and thought to myself its working already which was a very comforting feeling

 

Hours later I felt even more gratitude toward Hashem and this Rebbe than I felt when I first got the Bracha because I thought about it more and was able to process it.  I had prepared so much in order to get this Bracha, and the moment I had to get it was so fleeting even though I knew that I felt lighter on my feet walking out of the sanctuary and the shul after getting my blessing, I also felt bad because I tried to let other people get in front of me in order to get their Bracha first and I came with a list of people who I wanted blessed and was not able to talk about to him about these people so I had a sense of guilt that I could or should have done more.  When I told my friends this, they were not surprised.  They know I want the best for others and that I think of others before I think of myself and that is why I wanted other people to get their blessings first.  It was a beautiful experience, one that I’m glad I have been able to reflect on.  Yes, I wanted others to get their blessings first, but after reflection I realized that maybe it was part of the plan that I was summoned up to get my Bracha at the exact moment it was meant to be and when I left they were able to get their blessings I am thankful to Hashem and I am thankful that the Bracha I received was and is so very helpful.  Everyday in little ways since that day several weeks ago, I see myself in small ways getting stronger in areas of life.  May all of you have blessing upon blessing and get whatever it is you need at the right time.

 

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The Glow of Rabbi Holzberg and his Wife
December 11, 2008, 11:51 pm
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Dear blog Readers,

 

The Saturday morning of the long Thanksgiving weekend, I sat in Shul wondering what the rabbi would say about the events of that past week in India. My month hung open slightly as he spoke abut the senseless murder of Rabbi Gavriel Holzberg, and his wife, Rebbetzin Rivka Holzberg. It was the first time I heard it. Don’t get me wrong I had been following reports but events were still unfolding when I left for Shabbos Friday afternoon. When I got home from my Shabbos trip I was able to find more information. I found some Memorial videos, I read some blogs, but I was still at a loss for words. What can one say? When I was searching for information about Rabbi Holzberg, and his wife I was surprised about how many people had already written blogs about them, and I thought to myself. Wow I have to write about this, I will be expected to write about this, and I should write about it as a way of processing it myself. But again, what could I say, how could I find the words to describe the horror and sadness that I felt and feel? Then I thought about the poem I posted hours before my Shabbos trip. The poem is called Glow. It is not only a poem about lighting Shabbos candles, although that is what is being described. It is a poem about bringing light into this world and watching it glow. Bringing light into this world is bringing goodness The Rabbi and his wife glowed. They did things for others selflessly, and they brought light into this world. The light that they brought is not all extinguished. They touched the lives of so many, who in turn, I am sure, have touched the lives of others, and will continue to touch the lives of others that they meet. Thank G-d their children are here. All we can do is fellow the example of Gavriel, and Rivka Holzberg by creating more light, taking every opportunity to do so, and watch it glow creating goodness to fight off darkness.

 

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